Thursday, March 06, 2003 :::
spring break coming up.. dinner with t2 was amazing fun today... we made some good, solid sense...
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:37 PM
Wednesday, March 05, 2003 :::
and how would i know if someone loved me?
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 8:19 PM
tonight, me had a scary dream... it was sooo bad... jess and kate murdered someone, sweet no? well, i was with them and if i didnt cover their ass, i was going to jail too.. so i lied like a bitch, think like a killer and hide like a dog... just freaking scary, dont wanna have any more of these dream things
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:37 PM
kate to jess: "im having problems with spanish"
jess to kate: "maybe what you should do just drill yourself very hard"
kate to jess: "that sounds like a pleasureable experience"
me to you: "random, out of context quotes are fun"
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:03 PM
here's what I told kate+jess: "ya, last year I used to be 18 and this year, im 19!"
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:02 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2003 :::
just another observation: its about what I want and not what I did...
you know what I cant forget: Broken Jo telling me his cold, grainy icecream felt like a dead man's tongue, i know im going to use that for soem film of mine...
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 9:01 PM
maybe its me making up for not writing for so long:
Im missing the rain today, missing the rain
that wet my face, my eyes, their lashes,
covered them all with hair, those crashes
of thunder, imagined some lens was staring,
out of nowhere and a crew would appear:
and i was jumping in puddles, making splashes,
in slow motion film, running in dashes,
then stopping, then turning, and looking ahead,
seeing the barrel of pistol on my head..
like in those films no one will shoot,
coz im too scared to live it like death,
to act, to make those movies ive dreamt.
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:11 PM
here's something I told kate: this is my life, one second at a time (motion of fist closing and opening, by the second) and the way I spend it scares the shit out of me.. oh ya, btw, ive been watching too many movies (laugh laugh) .. actually, it does scare the shit out of me... life is beautiful, and i want to make someone who doesnt or cant, feel that way too...
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:03 PM
i think i want/have to write a novel/script.. its itching me...
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 7:01 PM
lumeloid is the high point of my life right now.. i think ive found meaning in my art... i dont know if i can make commercial cinema any more (not like I could make it before for sure) .. i want to make films that effect people, that stir changes... it has to have meaning.. i dont know how its going to happen, or where its going to start but you know what you have to do... you know it, so dont run away from it... coz its not going to work.. Cut the frikking crap
::: posted by Sudhanshu at 6:55 PM
